It’s been a few weeks since my last post, I appologize.
I was working as a full time medical assistant, going to school part time, and I am a mother of two. In one year I dropped out of school, then I had to lower my work hours… well long story short I ended up getting put on medical leave due to my fibromyalgia.
I’ve been put on all sorts of meds and physical therapy. I got better, then worse again. I’ve had test after test run and nothing shows up. And up to a couple weeks ago I didn’t realize how cynical and depressed I was becoming.
It wasn’t until I was sitting in my tub with a knife. Just pressing it against my wrists, and telling myself what a piece of shit I was for not being healthy yet. It was then that I realized, I NEED HELP. I went the next day to my family doctor who immeditely sent me to the local hospitals psych ward.
I feel a little better, but it helped me realize who my real support system really is. As well as that I need to cope a little better with stress. I’m trying very hard to just get better mentally as well as physically. I still feel like I’m not doing enough for my family, but I am only human and things are bound to fall behind a little.
Step by step, minute by minute, I try. That’s all anyone can do, is try and never give up.